30 March 2008

Looking for and Living Life

Last night, I was watching "The Sound of Music" and I was surprised to hear a few very profound statements. It was during the part when Maria is speaking with her Mother Superior, just before the song, "Climb Every Mountain." The nun said two things that I have been thinking about today. She said, "You have to live the life you were born to live" and "You have to look for your life." I definitely haven't figured these two statements out, but I have given them some thought.

I do believe that each of us has certain experiences and accomplishments that we were born for. I'm not sure if we know what these experiences are when they're happening or even after they've happened, but perhaps someday, we'll be able to say, "I was born for that" or something like that. I do not know what I was born for. I'm not sure which of my experiences and/or accomplishments are truly meaningful in the grand scheme of things. I'm don't know if I'm leaving the life I was born to live, which I think ties into the other statement.

So, how do I look for my life? I don't know... I'm not sure if it involves living life while looking for opportunities to learn and grow. I don't know if it involves an actual search, like maybe there's some sort of list that you go through of new and different experiences before you figure out which direction to head. For me, it seems like I usually know which direction I want to go in, and knowing comes from that gut feeling of "this is right" and I should head this way. In my world, I just try to roll with what feels right and good and true, and I allow those things to drive my life.

I'm not sure if I'm living the life I was born to live and I'm certainly still looking for my life. In the mean time though, I'll keep doing what I'm doing, working hard, enjoying my job, racing, training, laughing, and living, because I think perhaps maybe the process is part of the answers to those two questions or statements...